Part of me [demo 2]

part of me won't go away
everyday reminded how much i hate it
weighted against the consequences
can't live without it, so insenseless
want to cut it out of my soul and just live with a gaping hole
pride myself and taking control of the situation
responsible for it's creation
hang my head low cause it's part of me
you hardly see, right here in the heart of me
hurting me, the roots old scar
new cuts over where the old ones are
and now i'm sick of this
i can't stand the sandpaper thoughts that grate on my sanity
i'd rather not even be than the man that's staring in the mirror through me

cut myself free
[willingly, stop just what's killing me]

i feel it everyday
i feel i've made my way
i feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
swallowing me

freedom can be frightening if you've never felt it
once it's been delt with
you feel like you've been touched by something angelic
and then melted down into a pool of peace
cease to be the animal you used to be
eradicate the paid pollution
feel the rein of resolution
but then you start to see another piece of yourself that you can't let be
memories of the last fight to free yourself
take you to the depths of the bottom of the well
so you know that you can choose to lose the part in your heart where your inside's bruised
you can live if you're willing to
put a stop to just what's killing you

this part of me won't go away
part of me won't go away