Be my blood

I am not within
Within myself
I am not here
Here I lay asleep

Asleep in someone else
Hopeless eyes, withered skin
Who is this man that stands before me?

My eyes blind
I can't stay here
In a fog so thick
All is grey

I misplaced myself and I lost my face
I hate what fills my shell.
There is nothing clear
And nothing is mine in this self-made hell

I am not here, not within myself
Cleanse me, rape me
Fill me Satan
Fill me father, bringer of light, be my blood