The pangs of conscience

I never thought flesh could be so deceiving
Even in a lifeless face.
I still can’t see past her smile...
And those eyes.
A constant reminder of what contentment meant to me.
As i wipe the crimson stains from her now drying cheeks
I still can’t come to terms with what has just occurred.
She is never coming back to me.
My selfish pride has allowed me to stay silent for years.
And now that i wish to express my deepest felt feelings
My chances are taken away from me.
You will never truly know how large of a part of my life you were.
You kept me alive in a time when i chose to roll over and die.
You were my existence and now you are gone
Without even a clue as to how much i loved you.
I will not forget.
I am truly sorry.