The smile of suffering

The fog so thick before me
It's the dawning of a dark day
I'm alone in this transforming
Inside i whisper but i don't have a say
Embedded in this flesh
The knife it twists
But i don't feel the pain
The smile of suffering across my face
I could escape but i remain
My emotions six feet under
As i'm existing just outside my skin
From where i cannot fight or struggle
My grip it loosens and my hope grows thin
I slip beneath the surface
I cannot breath and i cannot scream
A shard of hope that still pervades me
Tells me this suffering is but a dream
I am awake and i'm alive
My reality i cannot deny
Slowly accepting the pain within
For it to end it must begin
I descend into darkness
I long for the comfort of love's embrace
Long ago i knew it in a dream
But then it vanished without a trace
And now i'm left to shiver
Here in the cold i'm all alone
As i cling onto the last shred
Of the life i used to call my own
I descend into darkness