My worst enemy

I am the worst enemy of myself
Hunting things I shouldn't see
Seeing things better unseen forever
But no way, no chance to hide - I will see

Spreading words, spreading feelings
No thoughts behind, only this moment is important
Hurting so many beings with only one word

I have destroyed pictures drawn by someone
Destroyed only for one moment in another world
Every minute, every second so emotional

Feeling words, feeling thoughts
Touching, smelling, hurting
Too many expectations, still hurting

Millions of bullets are hitting me
Shot from an endless long fireline
I saw them all coming to me
But I just stood and waited

Now I lay on the soil
Drenched with my own blood, this moment is my very last
Feeling nothing, only freedom
Still tasting and smelling her
Her blood her lips, her sweat and tears
My bloody skin