There goes the one

There goes the one that I had
There goes the one that I knew

It lies abandoned like a useless conversation
It's sick inside me like some memory
gone rotten over time

It's too heavy to carry so
I just pick it up
from time to time
You send your message with all
the finesse of a letter bomb

And you said I'm never gonna change
And it seems to me you've always
stayed the same

and it's harder now that
I can see everything we used to be
it's perfect and it's paralyzing
tell me why i try
it's harder now to think about
that's the way it goes without a doubt
it's better now that
I found out that it's alright