Apathy for apologies

Last week you said you'd never do this to me
But now I'm sitting here wondering why I'm on the shelf again
I know you want to get closer to me
But I don't want to go on if you really do not want this

I hate to sound so jaded
But it seems like nothing's changing

My apathy for apologies is getting stronger
No, I can't take this any longer
So why don't you figure out if you want this or not
I know I said that I forgave you
But I don't want to see you go through
All this pain of messing up this night over again

Today you took back everything that you said
And I'm trying so hard to forget all the lies that came right in,
crashing through your teeth
But I can't say that I've been much better
So here's this letter

And over again, is what it feels like
I don't want to sit and watch you live a lie