Faint and fading out

i've been diving head first
for several years from now
swimming in the deepest waters
now i feel like
i've touched the ground
it feels harder to breathe
bathed in a total lack of sound
i've lost touch with my mouth
tongue tied with
everything else around

if i was to say
you'll never hear this again
never hear of me again
what would you say?

and if i'm to complain
of the bitterness in your eyes
hatred in cheap disguise
would you change a thing? no

i've been flirting with disasters
acting as the mistress of happiness
while i'm just craving
for constancy and goddamn honesty
don't throw your misery on me

i guess you're drowning too
your lips are turning blue
bad times are on their way for sure
i won't be the witness of it anymore