Vicki...is this a compromise?

It begins with a process of denying anything
That happens to you is your fault
Place blame, blame on anyone but you
Turn a blind eye as if consequence
Somehow escapes you

Let your guard down for just one time in your life
Would you let sincerity move you?
How does it feel trying not to drown
Swimming a sea of regret
With your past bearing down upon you?

Selfish in nature, given into impulse
I've lost so much from hurting others for my gain
No way to justify, no more excuse
Begging forgiveness is a custom
I've embraced for too long

Let your guard down for just one time in your life
Would you let sincerity move you?
How does it feel trying not to drown
Swimming a sea of regret
With your past bearing down upon you?

Begging forgiveness from lips
That hold hatred for me
Slip a small blade between tissue and frame
Keep this as my first souvenir of your trust
Shameless damage of the skin and bone
No recourse
Wounds of character are what is killing me

Let your guard down for just one time in your life
Would you let sincerity move you?
How does it feel trying not to drown
Swimming a sea of regret
With your past bearing down upon you?