Disgusting design

The stains of time pull me down
Into my meaninglessnes
I live the rest of my life
In the past next to death

I hate these times i realize what i am now
No medicine can save me from this undertow
It just protrects the decomposing

And i rot

So i pass away
Stop this slow death
Don`t let me die this way
No sense for this distress
So i pass away
How can i stop this fight
Don`t let me die this way
Or give me back my sight

And i know that i`m no god so take me lord above
Don`t wanna be a burden
For the ones i love

Am i allowed to regret anything i`ve done?
Or is this unfounded remorse?
Did they suffer from me?

Once i preached steady
Now i am a freak
Once i created rules
And now i seek for respect

I hate these times i realize what i am now
No medicine can save me from this undertow
It just protrects the decomposing

And i rot

I remember cadavers
World war two
Why can`t i rest with my friends
Who lay in the dirt beneath the frontier
Ground