Lost

Why do I push You away?
Why do I tell You to leave me alone like I never got something to say?
Why does it feel like I'm lying? I'm tired of smiling like I've been okay
I'm praying, I'm crying
I look up, I'm thinkin', how do You hear what I'm sayin'?
I'm tryna be a better person, but it's killing me inside
I can't seem to understand why I never trust anybody, I
I feel like You're never there, or maybe I never cared
Maybe I'm full of pride and when You called I couldn't hear

I need You right now, I do, I need You right now, I do
I need You right now, I do, I'm so lost without You
I need You, what can I say? I need You, what I can say?
I need You, what I can say? I'm so lost without You
'Cause this world around me is falling
And it feels like I'm going to break
It feels like I'm losing myself in this darkness
Could You show me the way?

I hope success doesn't change me like it does usually
Look in the mirror, like what did You do to me?
Old feelings that are creeping in
Got me wondering what is new to me
Forgive me for my faults
Mistakes that are made that are hurting
But You know who I am, and You died on a cross
You knew I wasn't perfect
Yeah, my faith in You is certain
But I'm bitter inside of a wilderness
Wake up at six in the morning
I wonder when I'll be tired a little less
Am I selfish for wanting more?
Inside of a home that we can't afford?
My transmission breaking down around three-thousand dollars outside the door?
See, when you run out of hope, you run into faith
I hear Your voice when I'm about to break
I made a lot of bad decisions in my life, I never seem to get it straight
Caring less for people that I cared about
I can feel my heart turning hollow
Don't you promise me forever when you can't even make it until tomorrow
Trust issues, yeah, I got plenty
Stories and scars, I got many
Lust all around me, I'm weak and you know it
I wonder if I'll ever be ready
To be the person that I know I can be
I need you to show me the way
I'm stubborn, I'm bitter, I'm prideful, I know it
I need You, what can I say?

I need You right now, I do, I need You right now, I do
I need You right now, I do, I'm so lost without You
I need You, what can I say? I need You, what I can say?
I need You, what I can say? I'm so lost without You
'Cause this world around me is falling
And it feels like I'm going to break
It feels like I'm losing myself in this darkness
Could You show me the way?