Running crazy

See I’m scared for tomorrow
Yeah can’t get over the past
And it seems like this smile
Is becoming more of a mask

Can’t rejuvenate the energy
That I thought that I had
I’m losing vision of the place
I just been working to have

Just been guessing these questions
Have them? Pressing and stressing?
My adolescents revolved around the same set of lessons
But I can’t get it right
Cause I’ve been losing sight
Cause what’s the point of dreaming, if you ain’t sleeping right

3am and exhausted
But I’m just lying awake
Thinking of something to say
But I think I’m going insane

Cause I can’t live in the moment
When I’ve been stuck in my brain
I’ve been trying to change for the better
But everything’s been the same

Cause I don’t know where I’m going
Can’t look back where I been
I don’t believe in meant to be’s
Cause I decide who I am

So I’m deciding to go, make the jump, give it all
Cause happiness is made
When you can smile if you fall

And I don’t know, if things are gonna to last
I’m running crazy, and I know I’m gonna crash
So if I leave, will you remember me
Or can we go back, to the way things used to be

Looking for that glimmer of light
Inside the darkest storm, an open war
Working towards that happiness I'm searching for
Repeating questions, like will this ever happen?

I’m stressing all the time, hell
Where’s the satisfaction
Cause believe me I’ve tried
Feels like a thousand of times

That I, tell my Ma, it’s coming
Even with her doubtful eye
Should I set this aside
Can someone give me a sign
Cause am I chasing a future
Or am I just wasting my time

Cause I’m full of doubt
And I can’t get them out
I wanna give you everything, feel like I’mma drown
Place my heart into the fire
Now all I’m feeling, is tired
I’ve been trying to set my mind higher
But can’t stop losing desire

Cause what if I never make it
What if this doesn’t work
Second guessing every move, rewriting every verse
Cause everything is just a maybe
And lately been running crazy
My vision’s getting hazy
And I can’t see what’s ahead, am I Gone?

And I don’t know, if things are gonna to last
I’m running crazy, and I know I’m gonna crash
So if I leave, will you remember me
Or will we go back, to the way things used to be