Hidden tears

Could you picture love without an end?
Picture love without the tears?
Picture life without a friend?
And picture life without no fears?

And what if we embraced our years?
What if we embraced our years?
What if we embraced our years, and we ain't ever look back?
What if we replaced tears with love, happiness and laughs?
And what if there was no sadness?
What if there was no sadness?

What if we never feel hurt and all we ever felt was joy?
What if we ain't feeling sure and always knew where we were going?
Just what if?
Could you picture that?

(Yo) I'm so lost inside my mind
I feel like I'm out of time
I'm so tired of mama crying
I'm so tired of people dying
I'm so tired of saying goodbye
I'm so tired of holding tight
I'm so tired of feeling tired
I just want to close my eyes

I don't wanna see tomorrow, and everyday that follows
I can't relate to no one, I've grown sick of all this convos
Everything seems pointless, I feel like I'm voiceless
No one understand this is not my choice, I can't control this

Depression has me captive
I know I should be grateful, but I take this shit for granted
Honestly, I'm sorry
If I can change I really would
But this is who I am and I'll forever be misunderstood

I'm just a product of what God made
I'm just a product of a flawed man with heartaches
I'm just a product of a broken soul
I'm just a fallen angel walking down this lonely road

I don't know man, I wish I had answers for the way I felt
I wish I knew why I hold this burden deep whitin'
I don't do this shit on purpose, I don't choose to feel this way
It's much deeper than that
And sometimes it kills me, because I see everyone else happy
I see my family, my friends
They are just so more stronger mentally, than me
I'm so fucking vulnerable, and I just don't get it
And that scares me, that scares me because I'm wearing out
And I try to tell people to be strong
What does that meant when I'm running out of strength myself?
You know? It's life
It's like I just can't picture happiness anymore man

If depression was a switch, I would flick it off right now
But depression is like a bitch, that don't wan to see your smile
She will kick you when you're down and she will trip you when you're up
She will stick you to the ground and she will hit you in the gut

I've been dealing with this shit for years
And I hide my pain amongst this peers
When I explain it's like nobody hears
Only if they saw this hidden tears

I've been dealing with this shit for years
And I hide my pain amongst this peers
When I explain it's like nobody hears
Only if they saw this hidden tears

Only if you saw the hidden tears, you'll see I'm suffering
You will know that I'm sincere and I'v had just enough of me
I don't like no company, I'm much preferred to be alone
Distant from my loved ones and hardly am I ever home

I just want to run away, somewhere where the sun is great
Somewhere where there's such no thing as pain, and no such thing as hate
Somewhere where I'll be okay, and someday I'll be okay

No, I cannot promise you I'll stay
No longer holding on as I slowly slip away
To live another day means to fight another war
Forgiven always pray but I can't do that shit no more

I can tell my faith is dying
I'm trapped out my own asylum
I've lost myself, I can not find me
If I off myself, I'll probably find him