Slowly letting go

These suicidal thoughts got me lost inside my head
It's hard for me to wake up and roll out up of bed
I'm tired of feeling weak, and I'm tired of feeling dead
I'm tired of feeling judged because nobody understands

And it's hard for me to vent cause I hear the same shit
But you don't feel what I feel when the pain hits
I can fill my walls up, I can cave in
I see my downfall and I'm falling straight in

Nothing feels the same anymore, no, no
I don't feel the love, all I feel is alone
What If I become so numb, so cold?
Wish that I can run far away from home

I've been holding on for far too long
Slowly letting go from the world in my palms
Sorry if this hurts, I don't mean no harm
Put me in the dirt cause my time has come

Slowly letting go, of all I've ever known
All you've ever seen, is all I've ever shown
But, deep inside I am trying
And deep inside I am crying
And deep inside I am dying
I'm tired of holding on
I'm tired of holding on

These suicidal thoughts got me lost in my heart
Forgetting how to love cause my heart is torn apart
And all my loved ones we have slowly grown apart
I'm staring at myself like I don't know who you are

No I don't know who you are anymore, no, no
I don't know who you?
Why have you become so cold?
Got so many scars buried deep inside my soul

Reaching for the stars while I feel so low
And I don't want to live, forgive me for my sins
Sorry If I hurt you, but this is how it ends
Tired of faking smiles I can no longer pretend

Tired of breaking down, got no strength to defend
To the ones I love, please don't mourn
Finally at peace, I no longer feel the storm
Finally at peace, from the sorrow and the tears
Finally I am free from this life that I fear

Slowly letting go, of all I've ever known
All you've ever seen, is all I've ever shown
But, deep inside I am trying
And deep inside I am crying
And deep inside I am dying
I'm tired of holding on
I'm tired of holding on