Bad apple

Ever on and on, I continue circling
With not but my hate in the carousel of agony
'Till slowly I forget, and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free

I'm slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I'm, who I was
Uncertainty eveloping my mind
'Till I can't break free and

Maybe it's a dream, maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing, if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say, you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care and my heart would never know

If I make another move, there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change, and it all will fade to black

Will tomorrow ever come? Will I make it through the night?
Will there ever be a place for the broken in the night?
Am I hurting? Am I sad? Should I stay or should I go?
I forgot how to tell. Do I ever even know?
Can I take another step? I've done everything I can
All the people that I see, I'll never understand

If I find a way to change, if I step into the light
Then I'll never be the same, and it all would fade to white

Ever on and on, I continue circling
With not but my hate in the carousel of agony
'Till slowly I forget, and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see that I can't break free

I'm slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I'm, who I was
Uncertainty eveloping my mind
'Till I can't break free and

Maybe it's a dream, maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing, if I told you how I feel
So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say, you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care and my heart would never know

If I make another move, there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change, and it all will fade to black

If I make another move, if I take another step
Then it all will fall apart, there'd be nothing of me left
If I'm crying in the wind, if I'm crying in the night
Will there ever be a way? Will my heart return to white?
Can you tell me who you are? Can you tell me where I'm?
I've forgot how to see, I've forgot if I can

If I opened my eyes, there'd be no more going back
Cause I'd throw it all away, and it all would fade to black