Exceed the feeling of nothing

I can't tell you how long I have been waiting
for
The occurrences that initiate the triggering of events
I cannot express
the pain I've felt in search for more
Give me a sign, a hint, a map, a
location to descent

Now that I can begin the journey to the starting
place

Orientation is scrambled by sudden changes around me
Let senses of
purpose acknowledge and arise me from the maze
I've found my sight again...

but still I cannot see what I cannot be

No sight, no sound, no smell, no
touch
No sense or thought, no nothing much
No fate, no hate, no right, no
wrong
No-one for so long

Reach the ultimate state of nothingness to escape
this entrapment so everlasting
I can only define this hell to be a loophole
that appears to be never-ending

Ever more steeper
Time and meaning fade
before my eyes
I'm falling deeper
Must reach the bottom before I
arise

Turning the corner
Just to bump into another restriction
Seeking the
border
A connection parallel to the affliction

No sight, no sound, no
smell, no touch
No sense or thought, no nothing much
No fate, no hate, no
right, no wrong
Nothing for so long

Accept the torture
My pain is building
until it implodes
I can no longer endure
Still no mercy but time alone