I need fixing

I need fixing
You don't know how bad it gets sometimes
It's not a pretty sight
It's not something I like to talk about

It's not just the hurting
It's what I do when she's not watching
Yeah it makes me sick too
I can't explain it
It's like I've lost all honesty

And all I ever wanted
Was a better tomorrow

It's buried so deep
I don't remember how it got started
I can't recall what led to it
It's become a part of me

I'm a liar
And good at it too
I've worked so hard
To push it all back
To hold it all in
To never ever tell