I hope this is a slap to your face

even if i try, i know i wouldn't find
a way to count the times
that i took the blame for you
i just don't want to
and even with all the lies
i've watched you fall asleep at night
now i know i can't sleep by myself too.

let's just pretend we're fine
postpone the end, this time
why don't you see that everything is falling apart?

i'm keeping my word
standing around you
don't try to make my world
just turn around you

you will pretend we're fine
postpone the end, just try
but i know, everything is falling apart

every single move
every word you choose
i want to hold you but
my hands are shanking too.