Consider yourself lucky

i try and try so hard pretending to be friends but it's not what it's cracked up to be.
i'm slipping up again.
it's time for this to end.
i guess i'm not what i'm cracked up to be.
but you don't know what it's like when it's all said and done.
i fall flat on my face but i get back up again.
this could be my last chance to be somebody else, someone i once was when you gave me my first chance.
but i fally flat on my face just to get back up again.
this will be my last chance.
so, you've got to save me today from words that i can't say because you don't know what it's like to be me and when it's all said and done.
but i guess this time it is mine to stop pretending that it's all said and done.
i bet you don't know what it's like learning how to live.
learning how to live with this.