Straight and fast

I can recall the simple times I used to live
When all my worries weren't enough to make me sick
And everybody tells me how lucky I am
Cause other's problems seem to worth much more than mine
I can recall a better time to heal myself
Cause everything I've done has blamed somebody else

Am I supposed to think my life could be a lot worse?
But I prefer to think that it could be the best
Hallucinations keep me trapped inside this hell
My mind just fools me in a way that I can't tell

(And deep inside I'm bleeding
I don't wanna be here anymore
Life sucks, but still I don't wanna die
There must be another way out)

And everybody tells me how lucky I am
Cause other's problems seem to worth much more than mine
Why can't I think my life could be better than this?
But now I'm dead and gone, my life was such a waste