I will struggle

I'm wide awake, I know the truth
Some people are poison and I'm the proof
I hear the voice inside that says
"Everyone is beautiful but you!"

One mind, any weapon
I'm in heaven
My nerves start to deaden
Everything is the same to me
When I let go I become who I might be

Why do I hate what they love?
My insecutities and everything I'm made of?
I'm okay with being something I'm not
We live, we die, we rot!

Every single day I will struggle
To just be happy again, to feel normal
I know I'm in trouble
Is this the way that it feels to be no one?
I will struggle
Every day that I survive feels like a miracle
I'm in trouble
This is the way that it feels to be no one

I hate myself, I want to die
I can't find meaning in this life
I never asked to be alive
And I don't think I was born to survive

The needle breaks the skin
I feel it sinking in
My god, what have I done?
My mother's only son
I'm far from invincible
And some days I feel invisible

Every single day
I will struggle
To just be happy again, to feel normal
I know I'm in trouble
Is this the way that it feels to be no one
I will struggle
Every day that I survive feels like a miracle
I'm in trouble
This is the way that it feels to be no one

Life is so hard
But we share the same struggle
They say "better a live coward
Than a dead hero"
I thought I was chosen, but really I am broken
I'm fragile, I could break at any moment

Don't be like me!
Don't be like me
If you know there is hope
Set yourself free

If the good die young
Then I'll be around for a lifetime
If the good die young
Then I'll be around for a lifetime

Don't be like me!
Don't find comfort in the places I go
I'm too scared to look in a mirror
Too afraid to live
But too cowardly to die
I'm selfish, I'm a liar, I'm flawed
I can't control my anger
I can't face my appearance
I can't love the right way

But it's time to face the truth
I will struggle every day
For the rest of my life

And I'll always, in every way, and every day
I will struggle!
And I'll always, in every way, and every day
I will struggle!
And I'll always, in every way, and every day
I will struggle!
And I'll always, in every way, and every day
I will struggle!