I have a hard time explaining myself

i have a hard time explaining myself
last time i followed the crumbs
that led to your den
i found you alone
i could have stared at your shadow for hours on end

maybe i'm easily swayed
and i should have known
you wouldn't come home
i have a hard time explaining myself to my friends

i have been trying to reach you for days
are you deserted in numerous ways
what can i do

if there is a record that stands in our way
i would be happy to have it erased
how about you