Strange affiliation

I haven't thought about you for awhile
That's something i'll admit
And i don't recall the last chat we had
Most of those don't really stick
But i realize what you're up against
Even if it doesn't show
I've only just discovered
Bruises never go
And it's a strange affiliation we have
As you may already know

I know you spend a lot of time alone
Deliberating things with god
And i hope he throws a line sometime
And points out all the things that you got
But the longer you keep waiting
And averting your eyes
The more you dim the lights
On what you leave behind
I guess there's no avoiding the stuff
He poured down our veins

So now you've got me up at night
And i hope you're making out alright
If you'll give me a moment to catch my breath
I know a friend is hard to find
Is this something you've always known
The bitterest pills are meant to swallow alone
It's not that big a deal i guess
Just brings us down with all the rest