I'm not ready to forgive you

The minute the ship docked I saw your face, in the window
You stood like a girl I've always known, always want to
And I fell back in love with you again, didn't want to
And I forgot the things I thought that I would say, didn't have to

And to your left and right there stood my son, and my daughter
But smiling back behind you stood the sum, for departure
So here I stand a man without a plan, or a virtue
I can either spend my life out here at sea, or be a murderer

I'm not ready to forgive you
I'm not ready to forget you