Bad dreams

I thought it was raining,
but it's only the AC
running in courtyard.

I wasn't complaining,
I only raise an eyebrow
when I'm feeling shot down.

Or I...

Take a stick to me,
kick me till I fall,
swollen under my skin,
I am far...far...far...far...

On the playground I am
the only one at recess
lying on the asphalt.

My mother would die if
she knew I did this
to myself.

Don't tell her
Don't tell her,
I'm alright,
she knows I'm
her smartest child.

I'm down again,
my foot is on my head
I black, I black,
I blue and I red.
I'm down,
and she won't let you touch her,
anyone could see she's gone inside.
She won't let you love her,
nobody could make her open
wide enough,
wide enough,
wide enough.

I search for my place,
and climbing out of bed,
I make a little too much noise.

When I walk alone,
It's easy to pretend
I never had a problem.

And I try to rest,
but all I get is
bad dreams,
bad dreams,
bad dreams,
kick me till I fall.

When I wake alone,
It's easy to forget
I ever had a problem.