Visibility anxiety

I don't require you to say that I am your out of the ordinary confidant
I don't place words on display just to feel or mean something that I don't really mean to say
please don't ask more than I can give, it's not the time
a tragedy occurs within my mind

I can destroy beyond repair the things I seek
they probably shouldn't have been sought by me
I can elope from having bright light flights
they've strapped me in, I'll cut the cord

visibility...clearly is not for me
apologies particularly forgone...
all wrong...all wrong...so long...

oh look, there goes a day or 12 or 24
I don't believe I'm feeling feelings anymore