Defeat (the hardest truth)

I saw that a thousand times and thousand times I forgot
I can't remember what I've learned
I know that I want to hear the hardest truth
The hardest truth

Like in my all defeats
I don't want to hear the truth
Nothing has changed
I still believe and lose my time

I feed myself with lies, visions of great life
It is coming back to me always when I lose
I know but I want to hear the hardest truth
The hardest truth

All I want to call things that will never exist
All I want to call dreams that will never exist

Take me away
Take from this prison that I built inside me
I dont want to live in dream