Sleepless rest

This shameless contradiction pull the needle from my skin
I'm a mess but I know what I created
This isn't over yet
And I'm so slow from drinking stoned but you won't know, you won't know

All that I can say is I haven't changed (Give me reasons)
If I'm really gone will you be sorry?
All that I can say, is I'm still the same (Give me reasons)
If I'm really gone will you be sorry?

And this shits so contradicting
Feel like God but I'm in Hell
And I know what I created
Because I've done this to myself
Still so slow
A little drunk but not so stoned
And if I know myself
Then you know me all too well

All that I can say is I haven't changed (Give me reasons)
If I'm really gone will you be sorry?
All that I can say, is I'm still the same (Give me reasons)
If I'm really gone will you be sorry?

All that I can say is I haven't changed (Give me reasons)
If I'm really gone will you be sorry?
All that I can say, is I'm still the same (Give me reasons)
If I'm really gone will you be sorry?