Rabbit's hole

Waking up alone again
Asking her to leave before I need her to stay
Exit the room before I see her face
Jerking off to some sick shit on the internet
Feeling more ashamed than ever
Walking into the living room
Imagining myself hanging from the ceiling
I need you to see my brand new Rolex
I need you to see my designer clothes

I'll continue to get you drunk and high all night as long as you look at me
I don't want you to get to know me
I don't need you poking around inside my head
Finding out who I really am

I need you to scream out my name
Now lay flat down on my bed and spread those cheeks and let me in
I'll make you see God tonight and scream out my name until morning light
I need you now and I need you close
So that I don't break down and cut my throat

Someone please help me numb the pain
I hide behind these phony smiles, laughing at your stupid lies
I need you to scream out my name
Whether it’s for pleasure or pain
I don’t care anymore

I need you to make me whole again
I need to be able to come back home again
Fix this fucking broken boy
Tell me that you love me so and never wish to leave me alone
Tell me that I've made you see God’s face in the bed sheets
Tell me that I made you whole
And filled that endless empty void

Someone please help me numb the pain
I hide behind these phony smiles, laughing at your stupid lies
Telling you what you wanna hear
Just so I can get away, and hurt someone else for a change
I’ll make you scream out my name
It’s nice to hear someone else say it for a change
Whether it’s from pleasure or pain
I don’t care anymore

I am falling further down the rabbit's hole
I've been chasing Alice for way too long
I will never be ok. I'll probably die soon someday
I'll continue fucking everyone until I see your face on theirs
I'll never be ok. Someone please help me numb the pain

There’s not much time left, so don’t dawdle
Running down rabbits, cracking smiles of cats
Hiding from men mad as hats
I’m so fucked up, but I still need you here
Please scream out my name

Someone please help me numb the pain
I hide behind these phony smiles, laughing at your stupid lies
Telling you what you wanna hear
Just so I can get away, and hurt someone else for a change
I’ll make you scream out my name
It nice to hear someone else say it for a change
Whether it’s from pleasure or pain
I don’t care anymore