A lower level

Worst thing to ever happen to me,
Was really probably the best,
Voice of care said I need time,
But do I even have time left?,

Why do I go through this torture,
Here I sit and rot like a corpse,
My mind is the only live part of me,
Even that's gone now, here I died,

Revelations, eternal enemy, pride,
Who am I fighting for anyway?,
These objects of ponderation,
Will never seem to go away,

A lower level,
Keep asking why,
When the way is found,
I might have found God,