Revelations to the dead

I'm fucking gone!,
Just when I thought I was alive,
It was all mostly fake,
This..the cause of my demise,

The dark side of the soul,
Again reigns supreme,
Causing death unto hope,
What little hope there was,

What realizations I have?..you ask?,
There's still death of spirit,
Only a little hope, I found,
Maybe I do have a clue,

It's true, maybe there is death now,
But I don't really want to die,
Maybe it's best that I listen,
Pick up all the subtle hints,