Sleep overdose

When I lay my head down to sleep
After I close my eyes
I always wonder if it will be the final time
And since I've been dreaming it would be for years
Tonight I'll make my dreams come true
I'll take my medicine at once
And overdose in my sleep

All my belongings you can keep
Or throw them away like you've done before
My only last wish is that you see my body
And cry with your hand over your mouth
You'll be the first to find me
And the last to care