Lonely

They say life gets lonely and whatever you do
You always gotta keep trying to make it through
No one stays forever, they ain't permanent like a tattoo
It just takes one mistake to fuck things up, and stay to haunt you
And the longer you invested, the more you feel out of luck
But hey we've been through this only a million times
Each feeling is different from the last,and sometimes it makes you clueless to the signs
And I guess its a crime to say I've been optimistic for a long time although
I'm constantly reminded on reasons on why I should go
They say life is just too expensive
To lay back and be chill fuck being aggressive
But I'm feeling worthless and nervous
To how I may never find my purpose
I have tunnel vision, to that I admit
When I see something that I like, I'm gonna fully commit
That's why that shit hurts when it's time to quit
I'm so used to giving my all, then back to nothing at all
I always find ways to fuck things up
You thought you could handle me
I knew this would happen, it was just too good to be
And fuck everyone trying to judge me for my perspective
This stormy cloud is following me, and my whole world is deceptive
I'm trying my best to find reasons to trust again
But why does it always feel like its gonna back fire on me again, setting me back the start again
I guess I just need to vent, but I'm lacking that one friend

I remember when I would go to sleep happy
Wake up happy, there was no reason for me to feel crappy
I'd gladly go back to them days, oh yes
I would use this as a warning to ease the stress
What did I get myself into, everything's turned into a mess
Life is stabbing me in the back, but at least I could rely on death to have my back
Bury my body 6 feet under ground
Have my soul ascend with a new journey to be found
No names said but the games were still played
The museum got lost and now I'm left with nothing for display
Friends eventually betray but brothers stay
They're from different ball sacks, ain't trying be funny but we still closer than two balls in a scrotum
They're the only reason why I hesitate
To leave and devastate the whole wide world, I'm carrying on my own two shoulders
I've been caring my whole life that I wasn't prepared for the boulder
And the older I become, the less I use my tongue
Talking is for chumps id rather sit back and plan my plot
Living life with a constant empty slot
That slot is really special to me and cannot be bought
It's right beside my heart and my squad
Forever lm, a group of stoners from vaud who refuses to pick the cotton
We fight for the forgotten garden
And we aren't clueless, our third eye vision is sharpened
Even when things are darkened
Night vision in my 3rd, haven't you heard that were gonna make a difference to this world

One step at a time, eventually we will find the right time
Taking slow with this rhymes
Doing unlawful crimes to get through hard times
Protecting my mind from the wrong kinds
Of porcupines that are trying to pierce through my mental
I'm standing from the sidelines spectating my own life
How much more people will I have to go through until my whole world explodes in this experimental
I tried taking things nice and gentle, but it wasn't until reality hit me so hard that I started to let go