Need me

This shit ain't nothing different, here we go again
Telling each other that, "maybe we should just be friends."
It’s like a routine, a new scene
Every time we break up I experience new things
I stare at the clock & I wait for your response
But I wait & I wait & still you never call
Then I get to thinking bout how different it was
When I was out with 'him' on the rebound cuz
He treated me like a queen- back rubs & breakfast
& New kicks every fucken week. How we do this?
Shit is driving me crazy
I forget my self worth sometimes & lately
I've just been contemplating, maybe a little bit too much
I can’t even blaze it
Love leaving me stuck
I might be getting sick of this, I might be giving up
Cuz I told you hella times & you still don’t give a fuck

I finally understand the saying, “if I said it once, I said it twice”
I said it at least once a day & once every night
Politely, I might scream, cuz lack of communication gets me impatient
Gets me so stressed & after this whats next?
I don’t even wanna think about it cuz I doubt it’s
Gonna be productive
Probably won't compromise
Cold stare looking at me, water dripping from my eyes
& I don’t even know what’s healthy
Cuz all my relationships in the past have felt like these
I’m not a hopeless romantic
But I have less hope every time I’m involved in a romance
Damn, is this just how it is?
Find somebody, fall in love, fuck & have a few kids?
Put up with all their bullshit through thick and thin?
& Just cover up the scars like here we go again