Nothing left

Lord there’s nothing left of me
Lord there’s nothing left of me

Such an old soul
With such a young spirit
People try to tell me how to live my life
I don’t wanna hear it
And it’s not ‘cause I’m not good at listening
But I’m not commisioning any human to be belittling me
I’m distancing myself
It’s interesting
Cause when I took that step back I couldn’t believe what I was witnessing
Behind the scenes
Fucking nevermind these things
These people don’t think I see their true intentions when they be lyin’ to me?
I try to be myself and I try to be true
But when I look in the mirror I don’t know if I see reverie or you
This relationship is so utterly complicated
Cause reverie provokes thoughts of everything that I’ve ever hated
Frustrated, and jaded
My heart was invaded
Persueded my prevaricational fantasies
To remain sedated
I waited
I dictated my struggles and my devestation
Unmotivated and tainted I led my life intoxicated

Lord there’s nothing left of me
Lord there’s nothing left of me
Lord there’s nothing left of me
Lord there’s nothing left of me

So tell me how you deal with these split personalities
One focuses on life and the other upon the casualties
See gradually I’m faded
So damn focused on the drama
Only person that still seems me as “jordan” would be my mama
Put it on ya if you want it
You can say my house was haunted
Took four pills to murder my baby
Felt her coming out of my stomach
I could still feel the pain if I close my eyes tight enough
It was bright enough
I didn’t cry enough
I thought about it every night, I didn’t die, but what
Snap in my fuckin’ brain
It will never be the same
I can say that I regret it just admitting to the pain
Anyway, where am I going with this story
I’m just venting
Tend to get carried away in these theraputical sentences
Remember this
When I die
I hated breathing
You can call me masochistic and insane but I prefer bleeding
And what I’m needing is some wings to fly away
Or a time machine to get me the fuck away from today

Lord there’s nothing left of me
Lord there’s nothing left of me
Lord there’s nothing left of me
Lord there’s nothing left of me