Since its so

As if i lacked nothing and was like a lifeless person,
i let you go without lingering attachment.
All the love i had left and even the hardships,
i hid them behind my laughter.

as i've lived my life, such a thing as abandonment
from a person like that has only been a like fever
caught sometimes
those happy days togther will soon be gone of scars
and nothing but a soft trace of those scars will be left.

at the end of my exhausting days, glistening in the mirror
were my deep scars in which my tears circled.
because I yearned so much for you i unawaringly call out
your name and after, i cover my face once more.

as if because of our seperation i acted like i was free, and
I became busy here and there.
it was so hard to forget and so i stretched out the painful
memories into jokes.

as i've lived my life, such a thing as abandonment
from a person like that has only been a like fever
caught sometimes
those happy days togther will soon be gone of scars
and nothing but a soft trace of those scars will be left.

you knew i couldn't let you go and
you believed in me, but you left.
now as my mask slowly wears away and falls down
you'd probably see me, whose become so plain.

then even just a little you stand in the distance,
so when i see you don't hide,
please just once recognize me
so i can look into your eyes once more,
and during that time don't give anyone pain again.