Better than this

I'm sorry
I wanted to be
So much better than this
But I don't think I can
I'm sorry
I wanted to be
So much better than this
But I don't think I can

I say these words to keep your body
Close to my heart
I know you're gone, but I still miss you all the time

I say I'm fine but I can't keep you from my mind
You knew the worst of me
You loved the things I hated in myself

You saw my greatest fears
You sat with me those sixteen years
When I hated myself, and hated you
For loving me all the same
Please look away
But now, I've grown
And moved away from home
I keep my problems to myself
Because you taught me that strength
Wasn't building good support
But rather needing nothing of the sort
I keep steadfast in faith not to the world
But to your voice drilling deep inside my head
I've known the worst of this
I've cut off everyone
Because you taught me that's how a man
Should be

I'm sorry
I wanted to be
So much better than this
But I don't think I can
I'm sorry
I wanted to be
So much better than this
But I don't think I can

I say these words to keep your body
Close to my heart
I know you're gone, but I still miss you all the time

I say I'm fine but I can't keep you from my mind
I wanted to be so much better
But I'm not