Seeing red

Lately I've been wondering
How many times in my life
That I have said I love you and lied
Maybe I was only keeping you here
Because I was too damn stubborn to let you go
I've never been the best at letting my feelings show
Choose your next words carefully
Because they may well decide
How all of this will end
Maybe I was only keeping you here
Because I was too damn stubborn to let you go
I've never been the best at letting my feelings show
(Maybe I was keeping you here because I'm so selfish)
Though you were only three blocks from my house
It felt like forever
And the distance that I'd built between us
Made it not worth the walk

And I can't believe that I
Wasted away
Wasted my days with you
And I'll walk home without you
Three blocks back
To think about you

I wasted away
Wasted my days with you
And I'll walk home without you
Three blocks back
To think and doubt you