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Don't look back
I can't tell myself enough
I just can't let this go

I don't know why I can't seem to balance it all
I guess it's just because I'm looking back
When I dive into these memories I come crawling back to rolling seas
And again I can't find ways to stay afloat
I can't stay afloat
Lay me down for good

Flashbacks take me back to the place that I want to be
I want to stay here
I come around every once in a while just to reassure myself this was real
I will stay permanently stained

I fought this demon before
He left me broken and torn apart
A piece of him still lives in me
Leeching my sanity
I just can’t let it eat away, so I refuse this slow decay
Caught in between the dream
And the plan, not the man I used to wish I'd be
Leeching my fucking sanity

It’s been so long since I can say I felt at home
Sometimes I dream about the days when I was young
And wonder why everything had to go so wrong
I never planned for this, but then again I guess that no one really can
This life I live is always pulling on the pin
I'll never balance out these days of emptiness