My heart gets left behind

What am I running from?
Iʼm just wishing for an end to this
Someone shake my hollow frame
I canʼt keep my mouth above the waves
How can I reject what Iʼve been craving all along?
I guess I thought things would be different
Iʼm losing all my confidence

Living through this nightmare phase, contemplating everything
Will the choices that I made make me stand as a better man?
Will I cave and crush my heart, or drown myself alone in the dark?
Itʼs all I want and now Iʼm falling fast
I just want to make this last

Take a stop at the hospital, tell me everythingʼs fine
Thereʼs this constant reminder I wonʼt be alright
Can I dream of my funeral so I wake up alive this time?
Donʼt let my heart leave me behind

I canʼt keep my focus when I let the stress get to my head
Can you carry me away?
I feel much too close to death

And every time I try to close my eyes, Iʼm haunted
I canʼt sleep - exhausted
This feeling of weakness takes a hold and wonʼt let go
My lungs begin to fill with smoke
I cower at the thought of failing, and pray for my extinction

Take a stop at the hospital, tell me everythingʼs fine
Thereʼs this constant reminder I wonʼt be alright
Can I dream of my funeral so I wake up alive this time?
Donʼt let my heart leave me behind

This condition I leave myself in is destitution with no resolution
And I fight the feeling - I canʼt control it
Itʼs all or nothing, and I allow myself to wilt
I wonʼt deny it, I built my foundation around this pain
Itʼs whats made me who I am
All the faults and mistakes shape our hollow existence