My path away from hope

My feelings from nowhere
Take me from life
The loss is meaningless
Where I hollow from the inside
I dont deserve this shell of a life form
So deceptive-as if I exist
Heavy emptiness is upon me
And I am perpetuated for nothing
By despair and defeat
Hopeless wishes for something to cut me
Remind me that the time has passed for bleeding
Stay, stay with me silence
I am addicted to irredemption
Despair isn't special
To exsist is to watch everyone hate themself
I chose a way of blindness on my path far away from hope