No reason to wait for death

Something without a presence in this world
Has ripped inside me and taken everything out
And though Im left empty: it still hurts.
The pain that I cannot be killed by this nothingness
Wandering how it still always gets worse
When now it seems like there has never been happiness.
No one cares about your pain and its all you've got
but even if they did
Nothing could change what you do to yourself.
All is just a way to waste
My time on earth that I hate
I have no reason to wait
I have no reason to wait for death.
So easy to lose myself
So hard to find anything else
Theres nothing beyond my desperation.
I am endlessly gone.
And doing anything not to live
To be impossible I will stay in this torment.
All I can feel is emotion die
I cannot see anything with these tearful eyes
By my own despair: I am blind to life
Its no longer a loss if I'm dying.