The only way to leave

A loss on the journey to the end is all I can be
All I want is for nothing to know me
Inner being drained
Into a black sea
Where the losses
Go unseen
Sacrfices forgotten
To be hollow
For it is the only way to leave
Nothing needs me.
Life becoming unbearable
But the very unbearableness itself
Chains me to exsistance
With the defeat of my acceptance for it
My only certainty
Is that nothing pure can come of this
I cut myself to see if I still bleed
But even when blood falls
I dont feel
I dont believe
I pray to no one
For the emotional cold to suffocate me
Nothing needs me.
Silence articulating constant despair
I waste and wait for nothing
There is nowhere from here.